Kelly Rae and Mati Rose
Mati Rose and Kelly Rae had a wonderful evening event. Look at all the joy...
I am amazed that my crash from Squam still seems to be going. I feel a bit discombobulated, crabby, agitated, with a sense of loneliness even though I am surrounded by family and friends that I adore back here at home. I feel disconnected within and tired.
Having two shoots to process when I got home - unrelated to Squam, created a delay in me processing it. Part of me is excited to be able to do that now by processing the images and part of me feels tender doing it. I wish I understood what I am going through better, but all I can gather is that I need to move through it.
I am amazed that my crash from Squam still seems to be going. I feel a bit discombobulated, crabby, agitated, with a sense of loneliness even though I am surrounded by family and friends that I adore back here at home. I feel disconnected within and tired.
Having two shoots to process when I got home - unrelated to Squam, created a delay in me processing it. Part of me is excited to be able to do that now by processing the images and part of me feels tender doing it. I wish I understood what I am going through better, but all I can gather is that I need to move through it.
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"I am amazed that my crash from Squam still seems to be going. I feel a bit discombobulated, crabby, agitated, with a sense of loneliness even though I am surrounded by family and friends that I adore back here at home."
omg, me too. i still haven't written all that i want to say, because it won't come out. it's been almost a month and almost seems silly to talk about it, still, but i also need to.
so i guess what i'm trying to say, in this very long and rambling way, is that i hear you. xo
you know, i have talked to a few other people (including myself, yes I do talk to myself) who did have projects and work stuff to come home to, but nothing too stressful, and they (and me) are feeling like they are still crashing to earth, and still don't quite have their feet under them, and all those things... you are so not alone in this feeling... it's a little distracting, I find I wander around the studio aimlessly, staring out the window, wondering what I need to do... other than just keep doing what I have been...
I enjoyed these photos immensely-- you have captured the emotions and souls of all of these beautiful women!
Susan
xo
i love the warmth and smiles in your photos. they're beautiful. it looks like it was a very special gathering. take care of yourself.
wishing you gentle*ness in the tender*ness...
warmly,
gem
If I may, I'd like to offer a possible explanation~ 2 years ago I attended a hands-on healing seminar and had the same reaction upon coming home. When you are immersed in the energy of LOVE for days, when hearts and souls are wide open and risking, that energy of love, in a higher concentration than ever before experienced, fills your very cells.
LOVE, the highest vibrating energy that exists, will now seek to remove from your cells, your mind, your heart, all that does not vibrate at its same level. LOVE is a bulldozer. All inner crabbiness and lonliness and self-doubts will rise to the surface...to be seen ,acknowledged and cleared out.
Love likes a clean house in which to live. By agreeing to attend SQUAM, you agreed to raise your vibrations. The goal is to clear out the negativity lurking in your cells so that the feelings embraced at SQUAM will be part of your everyday experiences.
Love rules. Let the doubts flow out.
If it is any comfort...although I was not able to experience Squam in person...of of you lovely ladies in blogland have made me feel a part of the magic. And let me say, I feel more connected to myself and all of you because of it. The times I find myself lonely, I visit my favorite inspirations and I feel refreshed, encouraged, and at peace...
i hear you.
i think that after experiences that deep and open love so clearly, it's hard to go back to our regular lives where expectations keep us from truly opening and being accepted in that way. i have had at least one emotional slap in the face every day since returning. it's hard to integrate that love fest into regular life.
xoXOxo
oh honey-- most beautiful girl-- please please please be gentle with yourself-- there is no rush-- there is ALL the time in the world-- I know the feeling you are describing and it will take its course-- re-entry is so hard-- I am hoping next year to have some "re-entry" packets developed to help soften the landing-- til then, just be GOOD to your self and know that everything will get done as it needs to and there is NO RUSH
you are lovely!!
we love you!!
me, most especially!!
Bisous, Elizabeth
Love what Graciel said...it's so true..and difficult to get back into our lives at home...but you are doing just great!
and YOU love, are pure LOVE.
So...YOU RULE! (heehee)
Love you xx
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