My mind is numb
I can't really think much
my son is on an eating and drinking strike
all of a sudden being very crabby and demanding
guilt that my mindset is bringing this out in him
glints of reality that he is probably stretching his
power/ego muscle that starts to pop up around this age
I am just having a hard time dealing with it hour after hour
day after day.
It has been since the ER visit on Thursday since he has moved his bowels
so there are Dr. phone calls, medicines, drinks that I am trying to get him to take
that just aren't doing much.
Today they told me I need to bring him to a gastroenterologist. I am waiting for them to cal with the appointment time.
I got in for an ultrasound at the local fertility place tomorrow morning. The fact that they are experienced measuring early pregnancies makes me want to seek out their expertise. I still go to my obgyn on Thursday, but I look forward to tomorrow, as it will probably give some more answers.
I just want to veg out in front of the tv
I wake up in the morning wanting to feel a great day ahead-imagining all the great things that will happen
and I just can't.
I literally can't think/create/secretize things.
It is the strangest feeling-this numbness
it is better than feeling miserable
I feel as if I have had a partial labotomy
I spent his nap time watching in treatment episodes back to back
my husband has been out of town for business since yesterday
I am now going to make dinner and hope my boy eats something

I can't wait to get my brain back.