I know I am slow, really slow sometimes when it comes to paying attention to names etc.
I always loved The song Rehab. My son and I belt it out in the car-it is on a mixed cd my amazing brother in law gave us for xmas. I just yesterday-saw Amy winehouse singing in concert on tv, and made the connection. LOL. I am lame.
Anyway I just bought her album off itunes and can I say I LOVE her voice and the music! The lyrics-not so much-but for once I could care less. I am so in an Amy Winehouse appreciation mode.
My numbers yesterday SU*$ed the big one.
My beta went up from 1900+ to 2000+ a whole whopping 100 points in 2 days. So not only am I like 10 days behind but now it actually is 12 and instead of doubling it went up 100 points. Can I say I feel doomed? Also came a cross an article that said slow rising betas even when a heartbeat is seen has 90% chance of miscarrying.
So what about Dr, Miracle? What about all that hope crap I spoke of? Well I am still taking the meds, and will go in Wed probably for bw and u/s again. That will definitely tell a lot. I call my Dr., Dr. Miracle because he is so perfect for me and my personality, not because i think he performs miracles. He is fabulous and I have my son because of him, and my friend who is now 40 is about to have her second after going to him-after dissing a reputable clinic that didn't work for her.
Let me tell you my plan. IF this pregnancy fails I am going to train for the Womens Freihoffers (sp?) here in Albany this spring. I am going to collect the most slamming, amazing, shake your booty music from my collection and make multiple playlists. I am going to dance for at least 3 songs a day starting tonight. Anyone who has been around here a while knows how much I believe that feeling happy attracts better things. What feels better than that blissful happy excited dancing in your place grooving? Now if this fails I have decided I will train my ass off running at least 4 days a week. Have you ever noticed how really really funky fast music can make you run so much longer and faster? Mind you- I will be starting off REALLY slow, but from experience it only takes about 6 running sessions until it starts getting much easier. Since I don't want to get a beer gut, and don't do drugs of any kind, endorphins will become my friend. I will run and dance my way back to the living. If any of you think you want to partner up online to be running partners/buddies email me.
I always loved The song Rehab. My son and I belt it out in the car-it is on a mixed cd my amazing brother in law gave us for xmas. I just yesterday-saw Amy winehouse singing in concert on tv, and made the connection. LOL. I am lame.
Anyway I just bought her album off itunes and can I say I LOVE her voice and the music! The lyrics-not so much-but for once I could care less. I am so in an Amy Winehouse appreciation mode.
My numbers yesterday SU*$ed the big one.
My beta went up from 1900+ to 2000+ a whole whopping 100 points in 2 days. So not only am I like 10 days behind but now it actually is 12 and instead of doubling it went up 100 points. Can I say I feel doomed? Also came a cross an article that said slow rising betas even when a heartbeat is seen has 90% chance of miscarrying.
So what about Dr, Miracle? What about all that hope crap I spoke of? Well I am still taking the meds, and will go in Wed probably for bw and u/s again. That will definitely tell a lot. I call my Dr., Dr. Miracle because he is so perfect for me and my personality, not because i think he performs miracles. He is fabulous and I have my son because of him, and my friend who is now 40 is about to have her second after going to him-after dissing a reputable clinic that didn't work for her.
Let me tell you my plan. IF this pregnancy fails I am going to train for the Womens Freihoffers (sp?) here in Albany this spring. I am going to collect the most slamming, amazing, shake your booty music from my collection and make multiple playlists. I am going to dance for at least 3 songs a day starting tonight. Anyone who has been around here a while knows how much I believe that feeling happy attracts better things. What feels better than that blissful happy excited dancing in your place grooving? Now if this fails I have decided I will train my ass off running at least 4 days a week. Have you ever noticed how really really funky fast music can make you run so much longer and faster? Mind you- I will be starting off REALLY slow, but from experience it only takes about 6 running sessions until it starts getting much easier. Since I don't want to get a beer gut, and don't do drugs of any kind, endorphins will become my friend. I will run and dance my way back to the living. If any of you think you want to partner up online to be running partners/buddies email me.
posted by Colorsonmymind at 8:14:00 PM
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6 Comments:
hey you!
I made some good running mixes when I was doing the half marathon - I'll send you some!!!
Keep us posted about what's going on with you. I'll sit beside mccabe in the cheering section no matter which direction you are going!!
I did my dance for you last time babe even during treatment and I am dancing for you now.
Take Care sweetness you are such a trooper xxx
why not start your dancing right now?! xx
dude, let's run. shake that bootie and let's run.
you are totally tapping into your power. i can feel it.
roarrrrrrrrr!
love you.
oh, thea baby, i love you.
i've been following, mostly quietly (because i feel like i've needed to catch up, fully, and i haven't got to that point yet) and then i realized how silly i was being because i wanted you to know how much i'm supporting you.
you are just so incredible, to me. i want to give you lots and lots of hugs, which i am, and i'll also be your virtual running buddy, if you want.
purr.
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