Today started off a bit fast paced, as my husbands car is in teh shop and we had to get out of the house early. I went to my exercise class and that felt great.
Getting home, I realized today was the anniversary and decided that I would take some photos of the flowers I just bought as a way to be with my mom. She loved flowers and photographing them so it was a good way to remember and "be" with her. Then a distant friend called-I noticed she tried me yesterday twice, but I didn't get to talk with her. So I answered the phone and found out she was calling to tell me she is pregnant. Now I spoke to her for the first time in a while a few days ago, so she knew what I have been through lately. For her getting pregnant right now is not the best thing. I found myself trying to be nice and kind, while also feeling baffled as to why she would call me of all people. Today of all days. She said she isn't telling many people. Why did she choose to tell me?
The idea of having to try to be there for her just kicked the balance out from under me.
I found that my emotions were stirred beyond calming. I cried some. One of my close friends called and she listened to my tears and my confusion pour out. I am so grateful that I have so many close friends that do get me. That know what to say and when to say it. That they buoy me up without it being obvious.
Luckily the universe stepped in and my phone ran out of batteries after a few minutes, so I didn't have to be there for this "friend" that just doesn't get it.
Here are a few of my photos today, I guess my emotions are a bit evident here huh?